•November 1, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Hate myself
Hate school
Friends hate me

I don’t know why I even get out of bed.



•October 28, 2013 • Leave a Comment

I can not even draw for my homework I feel so awful.
How stupid I must be.


•October 28, 2013 • Leave a Comment

This sucks.
I don’t know I want to speak further on it.
So much for that working.


•August 26, 2013 • Leave a Comment

It’s so quiet without someone sleeping next to me.
The slow quiet breathing. The small sounds that escape when you’re far away. The way the sheets rustle when you move next to me. It’s nice.
I like that we’ve slept together but haven’t ‘slept together’. It’s a different feeling.
And your lips, soft and ever so sweet.

Maybe I like you more than I’m admiting.


•July 29, 2013 • Leave a Comment

It feels like my heart was just ripped out.


•July 13, 2013 • Leave a Comment

I don’t know how being tired and a wonderful bath turned into depressed and sad.
I can’t deal with this tonight.
I need sleep.
I don’t have time for this.



•July 11, 2013 • Leave a Comment

It will never not baffle me when my body is both in unbearable pain and numb at the same time. None of these medications are working anymore. None of the pain stops. Not the physical or the mental.
On the bright side the migraine medication my doctor started me on seems to be working. I’ve only developed one headache since I’ve started it and I was able to nip it in the bud befor it became a monster.
I can’t tell if it’s making me more crazy or not yet. I’ll give myself another week before I decide if that’s just me or the medication.

I’m losing my body and mind.
I’m too young for this shit.

I’m too young to have to do it alone.