11/1/13

Hate myself
Hate school
Friends hate me

I don’t know why I even get out of bed.
Awesome.

10/28/13

I can not even draw for my homework I feel so awful.
How stupid I must be.

10/28/13

This sucks.
I don’t know I want to speak further on it.
So much for that working.

8/26/13

It’s so quiet without someone sleeping next to me.
The slow quiet breathing. The small sounds that escape when you’re far away. The way the sheets rustle when you move next to me. It’s nice.
I like that we’ve slept together but haven’t ‘slept together’. It’s a different feeling.
And your lips, soft and ever so sweet.

Maybe I like you more than I’m admiting.

7/28/13

It feels like my heart was just ripped out.

7/13/13

I don’t know how being tired and a wonderful bath turned into depressed and sad.
Fuck.
I can’t deal with this tonight.
I need sleep.
I don’t have time for this.

Help.

7/11/13

It will never not baffle me when my body is both in unbearable pain and numb at the same time. None of these medications are working anymore. None of the pain stops. Not the physical or the mental.
On the bright side the migraine medication my doctor started me on seems to be working. I’ve only developed one headache since I’ve started it and I was able to nip it in the bud befor it became a monster.
I can’t tell if it’s making me more crazy or not yet. I’ll give myself another week before I decide if that’s just me or the medication.

I’m losing my body and mind.
I’m too young for this shit.

I’m too young to have to do it alone.

7/7/13

Happy birthday Liz.
Let’s just sit in the hotel and watch shitty cable.
Good job on being broke.
Woo hoo new Orleans.

Almost forgot that I hate my birthday.

7/2/13

I tire of people so quickly….

6/23/13

It’s been an interesting few days. This girl is nice. Not sure I want a relationship but I don’t want a fuck buddy ether. I think we both just need the affection. Can two people do that? Simply mutual affections without the rest of the things that come with it? It’ll be interesting to see what happens.

Also I miss Shayne. I worry about him so much.