5/22/13

I need to get out of this town.
A vaca is much needed.

5/22/13

It’s the worst feeling to wake up to someone in your bed and realize you don’t want them there.
I just carefully got out of bed, as to not wake her, and basicly run out of the room.
What is wrong with me..

5/21/13

There is something seriously wrong with me.
How do I have such a great day and then end this way. I was even almost genuanly happy today. What happened…
Now I can’t think about anything else and my head is going numb. I’m losing my mind.
She’s oblivious.
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck

5-9-13

Fuck.
I’ve run off anyone who could be bothered to give a shit about me yet again.
Good job Elizabeth.

Pain is pulsing through my arm. It’s quite awful really. But I’ve no one to talk to. She won’t text me back because I’ve made her mad yet again. The other I just told to fuck herself and she’s done stopping me from running away. No surprise there.
What am I going to do with myself. I can’t even hold down a decent fuck buddie. Not that we’ve even been having sex lately. Seeing as I still can’t. Probably should go to the doctor. But then I should probably also be taking my meds. I’m a mess..
No matter how much I pretend I am a mess. But I can’t, I won’t, let anyone in to help me.
Not again.

Fuck.
Now my head is going to explode. My body is falling apart.

Fuck….

4-18-13

Good job Elizabeth.
This poor girl. She should hate me.
I’m just going to hurt her. No matter what she does I can’t love her. I just don’t. I can’t.
I’ve tried to run her off.
I’ve been myself. Which should scare her.

This is going to end badly.

4-14-13

All of my muscles are soar. My arms, thughs, even my neck aches.
My head is in a bad place for all of this pain.

4-11-13

Broke down again today.
Awesome.